I just realize

After so long of being apart from you, I still feels my heart stings when I see your sad and gloomy display message in your msn. I still wanted to care for you, I still wanted to hear complains and sorrows. Not anymore as a lover, but as a anything else that would qualify me that position.

No longer that I long to hold you in my arms, no longer that I long for your dedicated devotion. I've learn to let go of that mortal addiction, but even so I still hoped that we could once again return to the times where I could hear your angelic voice every 11:35 P.M.

What I did was beyond forgiveness, so I do not wished for it. I just prayed that you'll stay as happy as we first meet, as pure as the first night we talked on the phone. The slightest sadness would cause the impact of catastrophic magnitude.

You're now a divine angel to me, never meant to be possessed, forever watchful of my fragile crystallized heart.


I am, born to be by your side;
But I, lost that irreplaceable pride;
So I'm, awaiting my chance to abide;
Hope I'll, one day regain my engraved pride.