...The Fading of Me...

Thus ends my will to continue;
Thus I make my leave, of this heart ache venue;
What was once beaming with hope;
Now seemed like I am the only dope.

Regrets is what left of us;
Its meaningless to seek for just;
All I ever hoped was to be that much closer;
But every time I try, its my will that I find closure.

...I bow to thee, once my pride and joy. I lay down my blood stained rose, as I am forced to submit. To you, the victor, and always will be. I've lost the moment I let you inside of me. As I silently fade into the lurking darkness, I pray only happiness of us will linger in me...

The Closing of A Chapter

As Autumn fade to Winter;
As Winter reborn to Spring;
As Spring make way to Summer.

For every season's past, we grow by every memory we've been bestowed. And like a chapter in novel, I close this chapter I hold so dear, as the ending of what was such a beautiful begining.

I'm grateful for the happiness we shared,
I regret for all the pain I caused,
I'm thankful we've met,
I'm sorry that we grew apart.

All of what we used to be, what's left is what we should have been.
The way of how things are, we were never meant to walk on the plains where lovers meet, as destined to reach higher where even the forsaken love could not linger.

As we are both of the same tree where thoughts bear fruit, its our fate we remain this way. Walking along side watching love wither and fall, our friendship shall out last the fiery passion, trancending the future we'll remain forever.

By this I end the chapter of my life where we stood mistaken, and let this end begin the chapter of where should stand. I thank you for a lesson well taught, I pray you will find your place in this world, My Cruel Teacher...

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Recently I Feel....

Recently I feel weary, even with doing nothing I feel tired;

Recently I feel down, like everything I do has lost its colors;

Recently I feel suffocated, like the walls around my room closing in on me;

Recently I feel haunted, by the images of my former spouse, still lingers like a ghost;

Recently I feel sorrow, for every lone moment I have, I'm reminded of what I've lost;

Recently I feel addicted, nights after nights of troubling slumber, I find myself getting acustomed to the sorrow that drowns my heart, am I addicted to sorrow?

Slipping Away My Consciousness

Everynight when my consciousness fades away, replaced by deeds of my past, reflecting upon every sin of my choice, only one warmth ease the fear of my fading consciousness, a warmth fate has yet to brought it cross my path...

And as I embrace it while slipping to slumber, I whisper these words "When I will ever meet you?"

Silent Farewell

Pathetically I felt apart at last;
I've shown a shame never before in my past;
Picking up the pieces of my broken heart;
I bid you farewell until this love is in my past.

There will be no voice, no wind, no whisper;
As I force myself, letting this love wither;
I'll miss all the times we happily chatter;
I'll miss you the most, my undestined lover.

Take care... My Love.

Favourite quote from "How I Met Your Mother"

"The one..."
"I'm gonna say something out loud that I've been doing a pretty good job not saying out loud lately."
"What you and Tony have, what for a second I thought you and I had, what I know that Marshall and Lily have, I want that... I do... I kept waiting for it to happen and waiting for it to happen, I guess I'm just tired of waiting for it to happen..."

These will be my last words to you, while I perform my final magic act, where "the prestige" shall be absent...

Dilemma

Seasons change, seasons pass;
None of the world seems to last;
Yet my feelings refuse to be my past;
Yet I find myself looking for the past.

My heart drives my desire;
My reason halts my body's fire;
To embrace my loving desire?
To douse my inner fire?

Should I tell you my true feelings?